又半夜睡不著了
說不上清醒還是暈眩
我想我的思緒是完全清明的,對於週遭一切甚至比白天察覺得更細節
察覺得最明白的是現在的身體完全不是自己的
連腦部某一個控制語言控制思考與控制動作的地方亦同
像是極度清醒地由自己身側見到了自己的一舉一動
feels so weird and i find my wording without relevance.
roommate's not asleep yet, so i get up and reach for my guitar
at first just trying to play something dull to put me back to sleep
such as a scale.
no, but in vain. the metronome stirs me up, or rather it annoyed me 0.0
now i cannot quit thinking about how lame my guitar plays.
sometimes i just wonder if passion really equals to competence.
or i'm just lacking that key moment,
which i need to practice more to approach.
but if it's so, the chock point comes a bit too earlier i guess= =
can i relate english to a more unconscious language than chinese?
since i cannot type anything in chinese now,
but with a poor grammar my english still functions fine.
dude, i'd need to get up tomorrow before 11 and leave at roughly 11:30
and i'm still awake!!
perhaps i can get a breakfast for myself a few moments later
in my faint memory, some breakfast stands open around 4 to 5.
the most ironic part of all these
is that i've lived a life without breakfast almost for all my college life
and now what cause me to get back to it is because of a serious insomnia.
more like a late night snack rather than healthy breakfast.
so crap i guess i'm going to ruin the band practice TODAY.
though i've made a few bars out, things just don't happen that way
everything i've put up seems so much like a joke.
whatever, i've heard bird singing right now
and i'm getting back to my bed to struggle for some sleep again
if it fails, then i'll go out to have my breakfast
and pretend that i'm a healthy early bird =w=+
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